Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Ashes and Wine

Don't know what to do anymore
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tear storming sea,
That would show you, that would make you hurt like me

All the same
I don't want mudslinging games
It's such a shame
To let you walk away

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?

Don't know if our fate's already sealed
This day's spinning circus on a wheel
I'm ill with the thought of your kiss
Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips

Shut it out
I've got no claim on you now
Not allowed to wear your freedom down

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?

I'll tear myself away
That is what you need
There is nothing left to say

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?
The day's still ashes and wine
Or are we ashes?

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

A prisoner of your love.

Just another random thought, sitting in the silence of my disturbed thoughts, I refused to think about it. I closed my eyes, tried to shut it tight. Carried everywhere by the wind it seemed so real and so true. Gazing deeply into the pool of water, I see my face staring back in amazement and in wonder at the emotions that I am overcome with. Drawing me closer and closer, stirred by the depth of passion, torn between the life that is and the life that will be. I struggle; trying to find a solution. I try to claw my way out, I try to fight the feelings and all the emotions I have been overcome with. Sitting in the dark thinking of you wishing you were here, realizing I am a prisoner of love, a prisoner of your love.

I hear nothing except the words you said. I pick the phone to call you right away then I realize I dont have your number! Can’t believe I would fall again. Can’t believe it would come to this. Can’t believe my dreams would be filled by your thoughts and I end up waking up wanting to see you everyday. It’s a shame the weekend is two full days, two full days of living like a fish out of water like a full moon on a black night sky even in darkness your face is what I see. I don’t care who you are! I don’t care what you did, I don’t care about anything else except the present. We may not see each other. Distance separates us, that’s true. But in my heart a special place remains open just for you. With thoughts of you tattooed in my mind, with my words screaming your name, rescure me darling, do I have to say the words?

Monday, November 7, 2011

Something to read (re-post)

The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you; that's why it's called falling in love, because you don't need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.
To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

---For the longest, I've been hard on myself. I just couldn't live with myself not knowing what could've been. I need closure and I needed answers. I think I'm okay now. Even though, I'm not completely 100% satisfied about most decisions, who ever is? I'll learn to move on and do greater and better things. Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever going to let go of this feeling. Probably not, but I can learn from it. Remember, ALWAYS, ALWAYS! listen to your heart and your guts. Do not try to please everyone around you and dont let them influence you on your decisions in any way. Always do what you feel is the right thing and trust me, you'll be happier. Please yourself first and in the long run everyone will be happy with the outcome. :) Now that's something you can hang your hat on. :) Goodnight Loves!!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

OOTD -The Yellow Blazer

Yellow Blazer - Thrift store
White shirt - Hollister
Blue/White Skirt - Forever21

Belt - Forever21

Shoes - Charlotte Russe

Purse - Rugged Warehouse